One of the things I love most about Facebook is the ability to feel the love. It really warms my heart to know there are so many people out there that truly care, and take the time to post something nice.
Yesterday, I was having a bad day. Nothing at all to do with my health, thank-goodness. Well, maybe sort of. iIt had to do with something that happened at work. Without getting into any details, there are some changes happening which will ultimately be good for me. But with anytime there is change, there is uncertainly. This year has already been filled with so much uncertainty, that I just felt pushed over the edge yesterday.
I’m trying so hard to make that transition from “Surviving” to “Thriving”. One would think it would be fairly easy, after all, I survived breast cancer!! It’s not so simple. The treatment part is almost done. Now it’s my head space I need to work on. I feel very vulnerable most of the time, and my emotions are so heightened, that what seems like an innocent comment, can literally had me in tears barely able to cope.
I know I should be able to give myself some slack, but it’s a hard thing to do. I just want things to be like they were. And I know they never will be. I have to find that place that works for me again. I still find it hard to concentrate and stay focused. I feel like I’m under a microscope at work. I know I’m not, but it’s how I’m feeling.
I think it’s time for me to find a support group that will meet my needs. It’s hard to do. I kept working through my treatment, and most don’t and the groups are not geared to that. Most seem to meet during the day which is great for those that don’t work, but that’s not me. I know, one step at a time. When I see my new Oncologist, I will ask him about a referral.
Anyway, back to the hugs….thanks you for each and every hug and message! They really do mean a lot to me. To be honest, you all are really THE BEST SUPPORT GROUP!
BIG HUGS TO ALL OF YOU!!!