post surgery March 17

I’ve just spent the past 2 hours reading through all the amazing messages, posts, emails, etc. I feel truly blessed to be so surrounded by so many incredible people with positive, loving vibes and prayers. As I’ve said, that is the best medicine possible.
I’m feeling so much better than I anticipated, and although I’m still sore, I have really good mobility.
I know waiting for the results will be tough, but whatever my next step is, I know I will conquer it.
Thank you all again with all my heart, and thank you from my family as well.

After Surgery-March 15

I am so overwhelmed by the outpouring of wonderful messages and posts from all of you. It will take me a day at least to read them all. All you positive wishes, prayers, and vibes are the best medicine I can have….thank you SO much.
It was a really long day yesterday. The surgery went really well, Dr. McCready is confident he got it all and a good margin, and it was small. Plus he only took out 1 lymph node instead of the expected 3-5, and that’s a good thing.
I’m feeling ok today, tired, and sore, but I’m not in pain. I promise I’m taking it easy and letting everyone take care of me.
My family and I so appreciate all the amazing comments, and they are making us all smile.
I know the next 2 weeks waiting for the results will be tough, but I know whatever it will be, I will be ok.
love, Randy

Surgery March 14

March 14
As I’m getting ready to go to the hospital, I looked in the mirror and stared at myself and looked at my breast that will never look this way again, and thought…get this cancer out of me! I feel strong, positive, scared, but I have been surrounded by love and great vibes, and I know that today IS the first day of the rest of my life. I love you all for you support, good wishes, prayers. And whatever lays ahead for me…I will face it with courage, and strength. I know I have the most wonderful family, the most caring friends anyone could ask for, and the best support team around me to guide me and help me through all this.
So at noon today, everyone please send more positive vibes and say a little prayer, a big one is fine to! 🙂

telling everyone

It was difficult telling everyone, so I decided to do a mass email.
This is what I sent out on March 2 & March 4th

it’s with a very heavy heart that I have to tell you this
My journey with PMH takes a turn in the wrong direction.
I was diagnosed this past Monday with invasive ductal sarcoma. Yes breast cancer.
It’s small 7-9mm they don’t detect anything in my lymph nodes, nor can anyone feel the lump to touch. But it’s there.
So I have to go for a lumpectomy, and a sentinal node biopsy. Needless to say, they are hoping that biopsy will show that the cancer isn’t in my lymph nodes, and that I will only need to have radiation after the lumpectomy.
After the lumpectomy, it will take about 2 weeks to get that diagnosis from the pathology, and stage the cancer, and determine what my next steps are,
My surgery is March 14 and my Mom is coming in
My surgeon is Dr. McCready at breast clinic at PMH.
Everyone at the foundation knows, and they have been wonderfully supportive.
I am still very raw in my emotions and really not sure what to think yet, it’s all so surreal. I know I’m in great hands and whatever they caught, they caught early, and now the hope is that its not aggressive.
There is a touch in irony in that I’ve raised a a quarter million $ for this hospital and cause, and helped others raised $1M, and now that is going to save my life!
Anyway my friends, I just wanted to let you know. I will be walking in September, sporting a pink lanyard.
Cancer is messing with the wrong girl!!
I am telling my girls on Monday night, as they have their last gymnastics qualifier for the Provincials on Sunday, and I don’t want to break their concentration
Once they know, then its ok if others know. I’m going to be leaning on everyone to help me through this, and I hope I can include you both in my circle.

March 4
Hearing the words “you have breast cancer” and having to tell your family and children, are probably the hardest things anyone has to go through. I heard those words last week and had to tell my children yesterday. We are still so raw from all of this, and we are trying to deal with all the information. I know I am in the best hands of Dr. McCready and the staff at PMCH. Having fundraised over a $250,000 for this hospital and helping others raise over a 1M$ in the past 10 years through I am confident that I WILL beat this thing. In the words of Dr. Buckman, “Cancer is a Word, not a Sentence” I am and will be a Survivor. Cancer picked the wrong woman, and I will be walking with a pink lanyard in Sept. Thank you everyone at the Foundation!

Mammograms and the Diagnosis & telling my girls

You would think that I would remember everything in detail, but the truth is, you really just want to forget…close your eyes, and try and wake up from a very bad dream.
I remember getting the call from my Doctor. She said there was something on my Mammogram that she didn’t like, and she didn’t want to wait the 6 months that had been recommended to get another Mammo. That one decision, literally could have been the key to my survival. I did go for another compression Mammogram….and yes ladies…they can squish them even more!! (One has to find humour in this journey!!)
From there, I ended up at the Gattuso Rapid Diagnostic clinic for a biopsy, and 2 days later with Richard by my side, we heard the words that would forever change my life, our lives. I had breast cancer.
We sat in disbelief. My ultimate fear.
Lots of things went through my mind, including was I going to die.
Thanks to my Doctor, it was caught early.

After telling my family, I went into planning mode. That’s what I do, I organize things, I make sure everyone is ok, and everything is organized. It kept me sane. We hadn’t yet told Carly or Hailey, as they still had one last gymnastic Provincial qualifier, and there was no way I was putting this on their minds, till they finished competing. It was the longest week ever.

The competition was great, and they both qualified and were going to provincials, but now that meant we had to tell them.
So, being the planner I am, I needed to make sure I had things in place first. I called their best friends parents, as I wanted them to know before they were blindsided by their daughters freaking out when my girls called them. In hindsight, it was probably one of the best planning things I did. I also called they gym and spoke to thier coaches, I needed to make sure they were safe in the gym both emotionally and physically.
Telling your kids you have cancer, is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I can’t even begin to put down in writing how heart wrenching it was, knowing I couldn’t make it all better for them. Isn’t that what a mom is supposed to do. Even writing this now, a few months later, it’s impossible to do without tears.

Getting my blog started

I’ve decided that it was time to put all my thoughts into one place. I’ve never done a blog before, so I really have no idea what I’m doing! But I’ll give it a shot.
I really want to start by copying some of emails and Facebook posts from when they happened and get caught up to the present. So please bear with me, we’ll figure this out together!
Everyone has said I should be keeping track of stuff, and hopefully this will do that. And this would be a great way to stay in touch with everyone, all in one place.
So….I go back to January….