Friday we got to PMC and of course had to wait till they made the cocktail, but while waiting Paul (from trade secrets) walked by me (he was there for an appoint) I was SO happy to see him, and thank him so much for everything. Plus we were able to talk about a few things for the walk. Then my buzzer rang, and it was time to start. Thanks to a friend, I asked for Manny to be my nurse, and he was really wonderful and explained everything to me in great detail. We talked about getting a port, and I think I will. When they discussed it yesterday, I was not able to absorb anymore.
Then my friend, Louise showed up to spend the rest of my time there. Richard did end up staying as there seemed to be so much going on that he felt he should be there for, plus by this time we found out I would be out of there at 1. So he read the paper 🙂

It was great to have Louise there, and she brought this awesome ginger stuff to put in water instead of drinking gingerale. She also gave me this beautiful blanket full of awareness ribbons, that bought for her Dad, but never was able to give it to him, I felt so honoured, as I knew how special it was to her. Both our fathers died of blood cancers, and was walk Light the Night together to celebrate our Fathers lives.

The time while having chemo went quickly as I had another visitor from the Foundation, Karen Adams came to see me. She knew I was going to be there. She said she had something very special to tell me and ask me. As a baseball fans….I know you’ll appreciate this. On May 14, the Blue Jays are playing the San Fran Giants, and because the BJ’s arn’t at home on Mothers Day this year, they are making this game thier PINK day. Since the BJ’s and Rogers centers are sponsors and hosts of the walk this year, they asked PMCF to participate in the opening, and Karen was there to ask ME, on behalf of the Foundation, to throw the opening pitch!!! Can you believe it!! Needless to say, it was at this point that Richard raised his head from the paper…LOL. So we get tickets for my family, and I get to take one person onto the field with me. I;m so excited!! Now I need to learn how to throw a ball, not like a girl! LOL
It was pretty overwhelming, and all of us were teary eyed. Certainly a light of sunshine in a day I wasn’t looking forward to.

I was also asked from the WEWC if the girls and I would like to be part of a Mothers Day fundraiser. They want some pictures of us, and need to girls to answer some questions on what the walk means to them. they agreed to do it with me, so we have to get some of that stuff done this week.

So we went home and Richard had chicken soup ready for me, and then we went for a walk. All was good till around 3 when I felt like a mack truck hit me and dumped flu virus on me. Thank goodness for the extra anti-nausea meds! I took them, and tylenol, and an Atavan (for good luck in relaxing) got a wet cloth, and just worked through it all. it lasted off and on till around 10. and then I slept throught the night till 7. I felt pretty good in the morning, took the other antii nausea meds, and ate breakfast. We had to go back to PMCH on Sat to get my Neulasta shot, and I had a wonderful nurse who really took all the time I needed to ask all my questions. I started get some nausea, took more meds, stayed resting for about an hour, then went home.
I slept for about 2 hours, and woke up feeling good. In between I sent Richard to Shoppers to pick up some new make up items that I was told to replace. He’s been really good, and has opened up to me about being scared and how hard it is to watch me go through this.

My friends have been so wonderful, and I feel truly blessed with the care packages, cards, and good wishes. I truly do feel the love, the positive vibes and prayers from everyone. In my dark moments, I go back an re-read the messages and they make me smile. I know I’ve been quite open on Facebook, and it was a choice I made to go “public”, but it was the right choice for me, as I get so much for reading the messages. I did make the decision though to always keep things positive even when I it’s a really bad day. I’m sure no one wants to hear the really bad parts. So I keep those for those of you that I know I can really open up to and not feel that I’m burdening anyone.

Woke up this morning freeling good, I’m told I will have some bone pain from the Neulasta, but hopefully it’s no worse than the body pain I feel after running a marathon!!

I’m guess the next milestone will be if I get mouth sores, and I’ve been rinsing with baking soda and water, and then my hair. Carly wants to do it now! She’s all gung ho, but I’m thinking it will be sometimes next weekend. That;s going to be tough, but I am prepared. I have the wigs, a few friends made me head wraps, and I bought a couple at the Wig salon at PMCH, plus sleeping caps.

I keep trying to find the silver lining in all this, and yesterday I was speaking to someone who I sent out my fundraising letter to. I’m asking people to donate to my girls this year, as I’m already past the minimum, and one of the Mom’s I sent it to called me in disbelief that this was happening to me. But she told me that because of my email, she made an appointment for her missed Mammogram!! So maybe that’s what my role is to be, an advocate for early detection! We’re all busy, but don’t miss that appointment, it could save your life. Based on everything I now know about my cancer, my mammogram detected it early, and potentially saved my life. Chemo now is my extra insurance.

So there’s my update
love to all of you!!